I love his voice. I’m no singer but I sing in my car, no matter whose in it, and I feel I can nail his songs the best.
The song Demons and the song Whiskey hit me in my core.
Both, and I know this is gonna sound dumb, but my addiction to weed and rage. I grew up in a very violent house. We didn’t talk things out, we fought, even if we were wrong. It’s addicting to have that level of rage. Seeing red, being out of your body. One day like 6 yrs ago I heard Demons. With demons, it made think about how I was letting my rage become me and run my life
I was riding home by myself from Tifton to Valdosta. I broke down crying driving on back roads at night cause I felt the song in my heart.
Then Whiskey a while after, and it made me see how much I was relying on weed to mask my emotions. I still smoke. But it’s a lot less and I am open to myself and anyone who does something to affect(?) my emotions.
Then like I said, the new song oh my god. Boy. My mama having cancer. She raised me. She believes in God, and I don’t. It got me to thinking that maybe I don’t know and that all this has happened and will happen and if there is a god, we don’t know anything about them, so why make assumptions? Just feel the grass grow between your toes.
Whew. Sorry brother/sister, I got to running my fingers and couldn’t stop.
Hey man, I’m glad you’re able to have some honest introspection whatever the methods used to get there. Never be apologetic about sharing genuine emotions in a healthy way, life’s too short.
I grew up in an angry household too, I was the primary inheritor of my abusive father’s anger. My father lost his family because he couldn’t control his emotions, and watching that happen is a big part of the reason I mastered my anger after some missteps in my youth.
You’re not wrong in how you describe it, just being angry and letting loose is addictive in a way. I’m grateful I had people supporting me as I learned how to break the cycle, I hope you’ve got a support circle just as strong as mine was.
As for all you’re going through and what your mom is dealing with, I’m sending you a big brotherly hug over the internet, I wish you nothing but the best. If you ever need someone to lend and ear and talk to, please don’t be a stranger and drop me a DM.
Thanks, brother. I appreciate it so much. You got no idea. I definitely do. My partner, her and my son are the reasons I stopped myself and took control of it. We figured I am probably bipolar. We’ve taken steps to fight it. Knowing when I am having a mood swing, and stuff like that. She also calls me out on my bullshit. Like when I into the mindset that everyone is against me etc etc.
I got very lucky to have a partner whose smart enough to see I’m not just a rage monster. It’s helped me learn to be open with my feelings without exploding.
Thanks brother for the kind words. This is why I love forums like this. I find some of the kindest people on em. I always feel so lucky to be able to talk to folks like you.
Just grabbed a couple albums from the Tejon Street Corner Thieves the other day - good stuff! I’ll have to give those other bands a listen as well!
I love his voice. I’m no singer but I sing in my car, no matter whose in it, and I feel I can nail his songs the best.
The song Demons and the song Whiskey hit me in my core.
Both, and I know this is gonna sound dumb, but my addiction to weed and rage. I grew up in a very violent house. We didn’t talk things out, we fought, even if we were wrong. It’s addicting to have that level of rage. Seeing red, being out of your body. One day like 6 yrs ago I heard Demons. With demons, it made think about how I was letting my rage become me and run my life
I was riding home by myself from Tifton to Valdosta. I broke down crying driving on back roads at night cause I felt the song in my heart. Then Whiskey a while after, and it made me see how much I was relying on weed to mask my emotions. I still smoke. But it’s a lot less and I am open to myself and anyone who does something to affect(?) my emotions.
Then like I said, the new song oh my god. Boy. My mama having cancer. She raised me. She believes in God, and I don’t. It got me to thinking that maybe I don’t know and that all this has happened and will happen and if there is a god, we don’t know anything about them, so why make assumptions? Just feel the grass grow between your toes.
Whew. Sorry brother/sister, I got to running my fingers and couldn’t stop.
Hey man, I’m glad you’re able to have some honest introspection whatever the methods used to get there. Never be apologetic about sharing genuine emotions in a healthy way, life’s too short.
I grew up in an angry household too, I was the primary inheritor of my abusive father’s anger. My father lost his family because he couldn’t control his emotions, and watching that happen is a big part of the reason I mastered my anger after some missteps in my youth.
You’re not wrong in how you describe it, just being angry and letting loose is addictive in a way. I’m grateful I had people supporting me as I learned how to break the cycle, I hope you’ve got a support circle just as strong as mine was.
As for all you’re going through and what your mom is dealing with, I’m sending you a big brotherly hug over the internet, I wish you nothing but the best. If you ever need someone to lend and ear and talk to, please don’t be a stranger and drop me a DM.
Thanks, brother. I appreciate it so much. You got no idea. I definitely do. My partner, her and my son are the reasons I stopped myself and took control of it. We figured I am probably bipolar. We’ve taken steps to fight it. Knowing when I am having a mood swing, and stuff like that. She also calls me out on my bullshit. Like when I into the mindset that everyone is against me etc etc. I got very lucky to have a partner whose smart enough to see I’m not just a rage monster. It’s helped me learn to be open with my feelings without exploding.
Thanks brother for the kind words. This is why I love forums like this. I find some of the kindest people on em. I always feel so lucky to be able to talk to folks like you.