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Cake day: October 17th, 2023

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  • whenever someone suggest to me that I should “focus on my breathing” it has always had that same effect to me as the meme that goes along the lines of “you suddenly realize that your tongue has never truly had a comfortable place to rest in your mouth”-type of feeling to me during my conscious attempts to control the rate at which I am breathing. esp when there’s someone trying to be a narrator type persona delivering the suggestion, and even more so if I start to feel (for whatever reason) that there is some sort of hope/expectation mixed in with their instruction, that I will be able to safely demonstrate the execution of such a simple yet unfamiliar feat in the moment of suggestion.



  • it’s like a bait and switch where homophobia is tantamount to one’s internal sense of masculine heterosexuality, and the “trickster” to them in this instance has, in their always-active woman-objectifying-minds, discretely, but almost certainly malevolently, “switched genders” with the express purpose of trying to convince the particular male in question to consider the one thing that makes them more furious than any injustice they have ever experienced or witnessed: human’s capacity for the desire for anal insertion. it’s like the sphincter is a sacred sanctuary to them, and they have not yet become comfortable in their own body or mind, so the intense jealousy, coupled with fear of crossing the framework of taboo that they have been imbued with and accepted for themselves, is what is likely leading to the unpredictable but always neurotically aggressive reactions to such a “reveal” for this type of child-man, who has become over-sexualized-by-media-or-family, yet undereducated in core values, and with likely maladaptive internal principles/ideals to fill their place in order to protect their flimsy senses of self-worth that they continue to measure by simple means rather than sustainable, comprehensible, inclusive, or commendable metrics of “worth”