As an American I have no idea what this bizarre contraption is

I still got my recorder from elementary school. Will that help?

The only train between my house and work is a cargo train and I don’t want to hitch a ride like a homeless dude trying to see the countryside (not to mention it takes over an hour to walk to anywhere near those tracks when it only takes 30 minutes to drive to work when traffic isn’t fucked).

I’m even crying while at work. Partly cause of my anxiety disorder giving me random panic attacks and partly just from how fucked living is.

How do you practice getting better? My girl tells me she likes what I do, but I know I’m just fumbling around since we’re both inexperienced and I’m pretty sure she’s both being nice and embarrassed to talk about how I could improve. Anytime I’ve asked she just says I’m doing perfect which my porn addicted ass knows ain’t true.